I'm sorry, my understanding of self-esteem is incomplete at best. As you may know, I was about to find out quite a lot about it, but the thread was locked.

However, if you'll hop up on the couch here, I'll try to give you my best opinion.

You see, you are caught in a vicious cycle caused by your low self-esteem. You feel disconnected from the world, which manifests primarily as an inability to feel strong regard for the pixelated lives of little pixels. This is actually a cover for the "the sky is big, and I am small" syndrome, which is unfortunately very pronounced in your case. Afflicted as you are, you feel inclined to do nothing, rather than to do something, since doing something may result in failure and cause your self-esteem to suffer further. You have admitted to feeling nothing whether the pixels in your care thrive or die. This is clearly the result of your inadequacy complex. Your low self-esteem keeps you from seeing the one true way of living in harmony with pixels.

I will send you my bill.